Life with no purpose. How to go out? The answer is "just take the first step and keep going". Hahaha...keep trying? I'm tired, soooo tired by just doing nothing. It's hurt, but no wound. Afraid? Yes. I'm tired of trying, it's hurts when it doesn't work and I'm afraid of the repeating failures. Doing nothing but my brain is so full. With what I don't know. My headache doesn't stop. Aaaaaa
Oh, I got interesting story, I ask someone whether he wants to marry me even if I got nothing to offer to him. I lack of everything, everythingggggg. No job, no excellent skills, not beautiful, a failure, only know how to survive with barely minimum knowledge of how to cook a little and cleaning a little. He said he'll consider if I just know how to make bread.hahaha. so what does it mean? 😂 l save his name in my phone as "ma bro", means? My brother.hahaha, because he is 9 days older than me.hehe
I don't know whether he seriously consider me or not. But it seems like he won't consider, I don't know how to make bread.lol. he suggest me to sell my painting, should I? Do my painting has value? Will anyone buy it? If so please tell me.hahaha. I don't even has money to buy canvas, and of course money won't come by itself.hmmmmm. I don't want to meet human being. He make me want to do something. Can I like him? A little bit more? Hmmm, it's okay of he not liking me back, that's how crush works and I'm so used to it.
I've keep reading reincarnation type of manga novel to distract myself since that day, maybe a year has already pass and now no more story left to read, or need to wait new chapter. What to do next to distract me again? Yes, that kind of story which is not a reality, a fantasy. I don't want to think about the reality but everything make me think. I'm so tired......
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