I don't feel like doing my assignment anymore, got no interest. It's just too much for me, I just can't catch up everything at once. I need to understand too much thing in such a little time. Yeah, people will say I'm being fussy, childish, immature. I'm taking master's degree right now isn't? Being busy is a part of the game kiddo!.
It's true I like to learn new things, but one thing at a time. Not EVERYTHING in a day. I'm taking coursework because I need guidance how to do my thesis, that's the only reason I take this mode. I HATE groupwork, assignments, presentations.
I met counselor yet I was being blamed back. It's become solely my fault why I didn't finished my abundance task.I just had no willing on doing it, I demotivated. I met the counselor to talk to and have someone to listen to my problems. I don't want solutions. I just want someone to LISTEN to me. I know how to solve my problem. I just want to TALK and I'll automatically feel the burden isn't there anymore.
I got no one to talk to about my problems and I though meets the expert I could got my motivation back. It's just another mistakes. I lost trust in people long time ago. Now, I don't know what to do, I can't stop, my parent got high hope in me. I'm the only child doing master's degree. I also want them to be happy. I had nothing to offer to them, if continue my studies make them happier then I'll do it.
I really want to make it work. But I don't know how to keep myself motivated. Just solely depend on making my parents happy just not enough.
I keep questioning myself my I'm so slow, why I can't do anything faster, why I can't think logically, why I can't learn faster, why I can't catch up such a simple things, why I'm soooo stupid.
@;-BTB# :D