I'm thinking whether should I or shouldn't I change my master's mode from coursework to research. It's not really I hate going to class but kinda hate it a little bit when there's presentation and Q&A sessions. lol .The thing is, I'm hardly able to make a sudden shift from subject A then go study about subject B next which is totally different. It took time, kinda a lot. I really have a lots to do but I'm procrastinate just too long and it's not good. I'm well aware yet, I still ignore the consequences if I don't response.
In coursework of course it's kinda exciting as you got learn a lot about new things. It's similar to degree (like everyone said). You have exam, presentation, classes, but the workload is not as same as degree okay, you need to read lots of research paper, 4/5 of my subjects needs to read and do experiments, its time consuming bebeh. One is for skill and more to entrepreneur learning. Have 2 classes every week, my class in on the weekend and I have lots of time. Supposedly I'm able to do my assignment on weekdays. I'm a full timer, got 5 subjects for one semester. Supposedly I'm able to do well. But well I'm keep neglected my study and do NOTHING at all. Going to class, meeting people is so exhausting to me, not physically but mentally and I choose to stay in my rental room instead, just landing on bed, doing NOTHING again and again.
Maybe because I've been away for too long from society. After finishing my degree, I locked myself for a year without socializing. Been at home eat,sleep,eat,sleep, make few artworks and that's all. In 356 days a year, less than 5 times I went outside my house. I don't met anyone except my family and as I got offer continuing my study, only then I step out from my home. Not so far, around 5 hours by car. I found it's really hard for me to be in society, having group work and presentation is hard sport for me nowadays. I'm extremely tired.
Coursework is really helpful for people who are not genius like me but it''s really hard for me to socialize and adapt new environment. I only have 1 1/2 year. I need to finish my master within that time. I'm seriously broke and got no money right now. My dad spend his money for me, it somehow not enough but I can't ask for more from him. Why I don't search my own money? I have a lots in my mind, many assignment, job is another task to be completed, I'm socially not prepared.
that's few reasons why I want to go to research, but still, I heard few rumors about I might unable to graduate if my research was not acceptable. it's money problem next.
I want to write more but need to go home already, I'm at university's library from this morning and it's evening already and didn't eat yet. Ok then, Bye
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